I'm Disgruntled -- Poem by Sai Varenya

 I'm disgruntled 

My career dreams disillusioned. 

A girl who dreamt of power, 

A girl who dreamt of serving society, 

A girl who was always curious, 

A girl with a maverick mind

A girl who always smiled, 

A girl who was once very smart, brilliant,

 bright student, admired by her teachers. 

Now, lost her brightness, 

Submerged within a cocoon

Woven by all the wise elders advices. 

She was so true, passionate, optimistic, and ambitious. 

Turns of fate changed everything. 

Now she cries bitterly, 

No one to calm her. 

She is rich in character, 

Rich in knowledge, 

Yet, unable to secure a stable job. 

In the path lead by others, she treads. 

A path she was forced to take

By the pressures of life

And the lack of money. 

To buy a career--

It was against her ethics. 

With empty pockets

Her coaching dream,  too, remained a distant horizon.

-- Sai Varenya

20/07/2026

Time: 6.17--6.53 pm

A poem by Sai Varenya

 He appears like a comet

My bestie, he is-- 

Talks once in a blue moon, 

While my heart waits

For his presence

So patiently... 

He was a nightingale

In days now vanished. 

Now he blooms like Kurinji flower--

Rare, distant, and fleeting. 

Yet, my mind returns to him

Every day, every night, every breath, 

He is absent, yet alive within me

I call him a valuable friend, 

Though his warmth comes Like sunlight through clouds--

Felt for a moment, then gone before I can hold,

-- Sai Varenya

Time:7.30 pm-7. 39 pm

Ode to My Twin Soul-- Sai Varenya

 A compadreship started years ago--

The one I forgot gender. 

I emptied my mind to my twin soul today, 

And I saw my words 

Spill, flood, overflow. 

I sensed a dull ache in my chest, 

And heard a drum beating

Found it's my heart. 

Suffocation in my nose

When oxygen was plenty

I don't know why

I felt very strange

Not normal for me

Though normal, my friend calls it.

-- Sai Varenya

18/04/2026

Time: 2.21 pm