Untethered I sit here,
At my worplace in July,
Languid and adrift,
Inertia engulfed me--
Though I yearned to do something fruitful.
Apathetic workplace
Enervated me.
The sun climbed high,
Yet my heart refused to rise.
The hours dissolved into quiet emptiness.
The afternoon too passed like an unwritten page.
Yes, am an Asst Prof,
Caught in a monotony
Too deep for words--
Too heavy to escape.
-- Sai Varenya
22/07/2026
10.24 am
I'm disgruntled
My career dreams disillusioned.
A girl who dreamt of power,
A girl who dreamt of serving society,
A girl who was always curious,
A girl with a maverick mind
A girl who always smiled,
A girl who was once very smart, brilliant,
bright student, admired by her teachers.
Now, lost her brightness,
Submerged within a cocoon
Woven by all the wise elders advices.
She was so true, passionate, optimistic, and ambitious.
Turns of fate changed everything.
Now she cries bitterly,
No one to calm her.
She is rich in character,
Rich in knowledge,
Yet, unable to secure a stable job.
In the path lead by others, she treads.
A path she was forced to take
By the pressures of life
And the lack of money.
To buy a career--
It was against her ethics.
With empty pockets
Her coaching dream, too, remained a distant horizon.
-- Sai Varenya
20/07/2026
Time: 6.17--6.53 pm
He appears like a comet
My bestie, he is--
Talks once in a blue moon,
While my heart waits
For his presence
So patiently...
He was a nightingale
In days now vanished.
Now he blooms like Kurinji flower--
Rare, distant, and fleeting.
Yet, my mind returns to him
Every day, every night, every breath,
He is absent, yet alive within me
I call him a valuable friend,
Though his warmth comes Like sunlight through clouds--
Felt for a moment, then gone before I can hold,
-- Sai Varenya
Time:7.30 pm-7. 39 pm
A compadreship started years ago--
The one I forgot gender.
I emptied my mind to my twin soul today,
And I saw my words
Spill, flood, overflow.
I sensed a dull ache in my chest,
And heard a drum beating
Found it's my heart.
Suffocation in my nose
When oxygen was plenty
I don't know why
I felt very strange
Not normal for me
Though normal, my friend calls it.
-- Sai Varenya
18/04/2026
Time: 2.21 pm
Whensoever Aughtime reverance and homage quivers to Chiaroscuro Eidolon I...
Whensoever I behold any persona Seraphic...
Whensoever wayfarer adored me
Whensoever my heart whispers, they are good and true, a gentle light my soul can trust,
Whensoever my heart and mind bow in unconscious reverence...
In a fleeting span of days Or months, the illusion melts away.
Reality breaks upon me like an unbidden light...
The illusion crumbles with lightning's speed
And yet, again and again, it returns...
Certain masks slip and scatter in sudden silence--
Yet only a few are unveiled before the world.
Everyone I met whom I adored and held in deep reverance--
Those untrue were, and still are, unveiled by fate.
Composed by Sai Varenya
Date: 21/08/2025
Time:7. 24 pm --7.59 pm
Heartbroken Teacher
(A poem composed by Sai Varenya during a fleeting emotion. )
I'm a heartbroken teacher,
Worn by waves of silent pain.
I can’t endure the weight of emotion—
My aura suffocates
In the presence of pretense.
I hate what teaching has become—
Its true value drowned,
Engulfed by false praise,
Fakeness, and actors
Who wear borrowed passion like a mask.
Composed on 06/08/2025
Time: 10.31 am
Teach "Err"
--Sai Varenya
Err is wisdom
Fabrication is intellect
Truth lost it's hue
Corruption stains the eduworld.
Composed on: 04/08/2025
Time: 5.22 pm
