WHY???

WHY?
-- A Poem Composed Upon a Turbulent State of Mind 
 -- Sai Varenya

Better kill me
With a dagger
Dear friend
For I can endure
That pain
Instead of your
Friend-Stranger-Friend-
Stranger play.
Block-unblock- block
I never had any negative intentions.
Nor do I have it now.
Nor will I have it in future.
For I love u,

As someone special.
As a person whom 

I adore so much,
For no reason
I could point out.

In my heart,
You are like a close friend of mine.
A brother sometimes,
A confident smtms,
Sm1 with whom
I can be myself.

I may call u funny names.
For I love to call
Such funny names.
To those close
At my heart and mind.
I will Call you.
Even if you don't like it.
For... I like it so much.
My Kunjigaaru...

I respect you.

It hurts too much
When u block
Me, Gaaru.
Please don't...
Are u testing me?
Are u playing 

With the feelings

 Of this poor 

innocent girl?
Am I still a stranger for u?
R u trying to keep me away?
If yes, why?
WHY? WHY?

I want answer.
I asked u this umpteem times.
All my queries,
Fell always,
On deaf ears.
Bearing no fruit.

Still, I ask you...
WHY?
Again and again
I will ask,
WHY?
I ponder answer for this
In the depth of my mind.

WE

With my pet
Was I
This day
Last Yr.
Alone I
Nw
My pet
Gone.

Three letters
Remain
In my mind
Meaningless
Now
Far away
From reality
What joke!
Fool Thoughts

I being
A sole traveller
In my world
Of distant
Fathom
Brooding
Subtle
Thoughts,
That seems
No perfect end,
Yet,
Digs deep
And deep
Reaching
No poles.
Can I
Reach
The end point?
Can I
Restart
From where
I began
In my
Past?
I do not know...
Can I?
I do not know.
Oh pity!
I say to myself.
Yes, it's so pity
Of me now.
Left with
No pet.
She went
Away...
Bidding
Bye...
No words
Could express
My anguish
My plight
My thoughts
My mind
How much I...
Who loved my pet
More than any 'PETS'
Felt...

I heard
A voice
So strong
Whispering
To me:
'Poor Kunjiiii'!
I feel so sad
About him.
Devoid of his
Lovely  "PET",
Lost his lively
Mood
'Can we do
Something
To bring back
The liveliness
Within him?'
(Product of a funny chat with a friend of mine.)